SICK

LATELY.......I ALWAYS FALL SICK EASILY...I DON'T KNOW WHY..BUT EVERYDAY..MY BODY WILL BE VERY WEAK...I CAN'T EVEN GET UP CORRECTLY...I WISH THE PAIN GO AWAY...IT'S HURTING ME AND PAINFUL...I BELIEVE THAT THERE IS ALWASY SECOND CHANCE FOR ME..WHEN I'M SICK..I CAN'T WRITE AND I HAVE NO MOOD. THERE IS LIKE 20 PERSON WHO WAITING TO READ MY FAN FIC...I MUST WRITE..BUT I CAN'T THE ILLNESS MAKE ME LOSE MY MOOD AND MY IDEA GONE..I DON'T WANT TO BURDEN MY FAMILY...STILL I NEED TO TAKE CARE OF AQISH IN THE MORNING AND AT NIGHT I'M TEACHING. I THINK MY BODY CAN'T TAKE IT..it's too much for me...hurm.............god..i just need more time.......

KIM JONGJIN..HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!

wah....it was jongjin birthday....how are you this years??? how are u doing in florida??? jongwoon must be happy when you are back with him. he missed you alot....jongjin ah..i wish you to have the best day and may god bless you always...

5JIB...SUPER JUNIOR

damn..i'm so excited....today (11/7/2011) JONGWOON, HAE N HYUKJAE is practicing with their new singles...damn...i really can't wait...for it...jongwoon oppa...i hope i can see the different side of you! man..you will show up your abs am i right??? hehehe suddenly become so pervert...talking about your abs..ekekeke..oppa...it's been a long time that i 've been waiting for you...oppa.....i'm so happy when finally i can meet you...you was there....looking at me..with your small eyes...you smile..you smile and that;s make me wanna die...

ADDICTED TO INFINITE CAN U SMILE!

I remember that feeling from a long time ago
When I looked at you
I remembered that time when I knew you
And you knew me
I think about those desperate times
When I wanted to be like you,
To hang out with you
But it’s merely a memory that passed

And, can you smile? You want this,
You hope for this, I can’t seem to have you
With only my heart
And, can you smile? I said to go,
I said that I’m okay
Seems like I can’t give you anything
But this to you in the end

I remember a long time ago
When I received your heart
I think of those times when you were
So loving towards to me, and I was thankful
We came across a farewell,
When we were the most in love
And when we were the happiest
I couldn’t hold you back because you were
So loving towards me, because I was sorry

And, can you smile? You want this,
You hope for this, I can’t seem to have you
With only my heart
And, can you smile? I said to go,
I said that I’m okay
Seems like I can’t give you anything
But this to you in the end

And still, still, in the end, still I…
But probably in the end… I still…
And still, still, in the end, still I…
But in the end, I still…

But I was suffocating from your frequent words
You tell me with rage
That my way of talking and my actions
Made you lose your words
And they made your anger rise
On this violent night
The starts lit up the sky and the moon shone
And you went steadily down your path
The night and moon are coming,
They’re just covered up by stars
The moon will always stay there
I’ll always be here for you, want you

And, can you smile? I want to take
I want to hold it all back
Because you can only be happy
Once you leave my side
And, can you smile? I said to go
I said that I’m okay
It seems like I can give you nothing
But this in the end

BEAST SHOWCASE! 1ST JULY i'm going!

omg..can't believe that i'm going to meet them...can't wait to see YANG YOSEOB! huhuhu really like him so much..thanks to ALONG..dapat jumpa 2AM pun sebab along.hehehe this year..terlampau banyak tgk show korea..huhuhu starting with SS3....THEN 2AM showcase, then SUPER JUNIOR M free concert and now..BEAST SHOWCASE..gosh..i'm very lucky!!!!!!!!!!!! i want to take their picture...huhuhuhu

it's been a long time....

OMG!!!!!!!!!!! it's been a long time i didn't merepek in here..ekekek.well so busy with works...and i'm deadly tired....what can i say more??? nothing...lately..i can't even hold my anger with cool way..i start to throw things at people when i'm angry..i know it's bad..but i can't stop it...hurm..i don't know why i become like this suddenly...i change...and lately..i can feel like there is something is looking at me.,.try to get me...i feel more sick...now even if i hit my hand at th door...my hand will bruiser....hurm...so pain and sick...na ottokeh????

WHY DID ELF ARE EMO???

WHAT THE FUCK??? why did ELF are so EMO??? i'm an ELF TOO...SO i can't said anything about SUPER JUNIOR my Idol?...you guys can see about it TOO.. where is KIBUM when all of them need him??? where is he?? am i wrong to state my opinion??? that is my FB...so..what the hell and your right to ask me to talk about it at other place??? what do you know about SUPER JUNIOR??? how long did you know them???? did you know their history??? did you know donghae and the others have to cover his part each time of SS2 N SS3??? busy with acting??? what the FUCK??? SIOWN, HEECHUL, DONGHAE, MING, DONGHAE also busy with drama..i have seen their drama...but you...where is you??? and for the girls who are bashing me....don't be so confident about yourself ok??? i don't thinks so that you know who are SUPER JUNIOR...and if you read back my status...i didn't bash them..it was my opinion...and who the hell are you to talk like that to me???